fourth untitled story
When I opened my eyes slowly, I could see the pure white ceiling. Electronic sounds are sounding. After a while, several people peeked into my face, with a rustling footstep.
"――Awareness――"
"Still ... turbid ..."
“――Spontaneous breathing ... weak――..."
The fragmented voice is noisy and I close my eyes again.
All I knew was that I didn't die.
All I knew was that I couldn’t die.
What happened after I woke up was like a dream. After the tube in my throat was pulled out and I was able to talk, police officers visited me every day.
“When we looked up the path to buy that poison, we found that you bought it half a year ago.”
"As a result of the blood test, the unconscious man and your body had traces of quantitative intake of poisons."
"On the other hand, when the doctor examined your body, you found marks that were tightly squeezed on your neck and limbs. Was you suffering from violence on a daily basis? Did you try to suicide with him? "
The story inferred from the situation seemed to have been completed. I didn’t want to say anything. I will not denial that I wanted to suicide with him. It's true that I didn't want to be killed but I wanted to die.
“… I want you to search for my house.”
“What?”
“There is a weapon.”
My words surprised the police officers.
“He is the murderer of serial murder.”
――― From there, the investigation proceeded at once. In my house, a knife with a Rui's fingerprint and the victim's blood was found, and the footsteps left in the house of the fifth victim matched that of the Rui's shoe. The serial murderer who made people afraid is unconscious because a woman that was hiding him swallowed a poisonous substance with him. The woman was threatened by the suspect, but she tried to end his crime. She finally stopped the crime and endangered her life.
Such a story flowed in the news.
Eventually, after three months, his consciousness did not return and I was discharged. I went home without returning to the company. I didn't even meet with him who helped me at that time, and it was all over. Only time passed, meaningless.
Four years have passed since then. A month after returning home, police officers informed me that Rui had died. I was listening to it as vaguely like it doesn't matter to me. Suddenly the surroundings became sympathetic as soon as they knew I was pregnant with his child. Just the day before I heard he was dead, I had surgery. I didn't really think about it, but the people around me are thinking I’m pity. Increasingly, I noticed that my emotions were flat. This is the same as being dead. Autumn without him will come around again. I received a mail. It was from Kaname. I remember myself hugging Rui instead of him in front of the company. Without reading the letter, I teared it and threw it away.
I enter the room that he hadn't been in since he left. In that room, I look at a painting of him I drew on that day. Eyes like glass, red lips, tall nose, moderately muscular body. At the same time, I remember his temperature. A cold body like it's dead became as hot as burning only when he was trying to die with me. Gently stroke the trace of the pencil with one finger like when he stroked my back in the bed. I was thinking for a long time. Now, I have come to a conclusion. Die in the same way as him. Then I felt I could go to the same place as him. Did you know I loved you so much? I speak to Rui in my heart. When I was in elementary school, classmate told me that man and woman who died in the same way can meet in the next life. Maybe we can meet in the next life. No, maybe I could meet you if I didn't wake up in the hospital. Whatever, I don’t care. I don't want to live in a world without you. A few days ago I was buying that poison drug. I put my mouth on the small bottle. Cool bottle. Very different from your hot lips. After all, we can't meet because we die differently. With a small smile, I drank it all at once. In the end, I couldn't say this to you directly.
I love you, Rui.
Me too, Anne.
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