second untitled story.
続きです☆
まだ中学生なので英語がおぼつかないですが、そこら辺は甘く見て下さい(-_-;)
From that day, I have hardly slept.
On TV, the story of that serial murder case is reported every day.
――― It is a devilish crime as a human being despaired of society. ―――
――― No, it is the work of a human who wants to satisfy the desire to reveal himself by staring the world. ―――
――― Isn't the five victims actually have some common point? ―――
Whether I take a train, have a meal at lunch, or open the internet, I can find inferences that I heard somewhere. The murder that occurred in the next apartment was also being reported as the fifth serial murder. The sixth person may be me. I imagined myself being reported in the news, just like other victims.
See? I can’t sleep again.
I dive into my bed and without moving, look at a dark blue room. If I move even a little, or make a noise, it will find me. ―――what’s it? I feel like curtains, lights, door, and laundry are all pretending to be dead and looking at me. I close my eyes to shake off stupid thoughts.
I realized the key opened without any sound. The front door slowly opens. The outside air flows in. The floor of the kitchen creaks. One step, two step, three step. The sound of palpitations is loud.
“...Anne”
Rui opened the door and put his hand next to my pillow. A lukewarm thing fell down on my face.
I’m back.
I move only my eyes to see him. A mouth with a gentle arc in a pitch black shadow.
“Rui…”
“Ah, I'm so tired.”
He stood up and began to undress with his back to me. The smell of blood on the first night.
“Hey, Rui, did you…”
“?”
Rui tilts his head and turns around. That face. Same as the first night. Half of his face is covered with black blood. From the tip of my hair, another drop of blood dropped.
“I'll rent a bath.”
Like repeating the same night, I can't refuse, I can't blink like I'm dead from the beginning, and I can only watch his bareback disappear into the bathroom. ...and the edge of the knife in his hand is wet and dirty. The bathroom door closed and I finally took a breath. Did he kill someone again? Now the whole body begins to tremble. Do humans get cold from their organs when they are really scary? No matter what I did, I felt like my body temperature would never return.
“Thank you for the towel. It has become a cold season.”
Saying so, Rui walked naked and sat on my bed. And touch my face with warm hands.
“I’m sorry. Your face got dirty.”
Say cheerfully as before. He came into my bed. My cold legs and his hot legs get entangled like snakes.
“You don’t have to pretend like you’re dead.”
Rui holds my head with his arm, and gently strokes it. The news, newspapers, workplace people's voice, rumors, selfish guesses, and stories of dead people are revived and flowed into my head. The fifth victim was a young male college student. Mosaiced grandmother's trembling hands and tearful voice with TV's microphone. I couldn't stand it and closed my eyes tightly.
Please, don’t kill.”
“Why are you talking about that suddenly? I told you I won’t kill you.”
“No, don’t kill anyone, anymore.”
“...Why?”
Rui raises his head to see me.
“I’m scary.”
“Am I scary?”
“No, I’m scared to change.”
Even though I'm already dead, I’m thinking I don't want to die yet.
“Hmm. I’ll think about it.”
Rui said, holding my head again. I was frightened and stiff by the strange body odor, but Rui started to sleep. Why did you invite such a disaster? As long as I didn't notice it, I could live in a dirty and distorted part of my world without being distracted by this man. Close my emotions as if I'm dead. When I realize that my world is distorted and crawl out of that world, I'm not really confident that I will be able to stay as I am.
Next morning, I woke up after a long absence. In other words, I was able to sleep. I tell myself that my fatigue was the limit. I get up slowly. A quick glance at the side reveals that the bare upper half of Rui is dimly illuminated by the lightness of the early morning.
Suddenly I dropped my line of sight to my feet, and I found a knife with dry blood on the floor under the bed. Gaze unintentionally.
“Are you thinking of killing me with that?”
I hold my breath.
“...I haven’t even thought about that.”
My mouth was dry and I couldn't say much, but I managed to answer and avoid Rui, who was trying to entwine his arms from my back.
I have to keep him inside. I shouldn’t let him out anymore. I thought so, and contacted my office to get a day off “because of a sudden illness.” Since I worked hard, I wasn't scrutinized. I hang up the phone and turn my gaze back to the man who is smiling and drinking tea.
“I can’t get you out.”
“Maybe Anne will be my partner all day long? What will you do?”
Rui laughs. What's scary is that this guy is always laughing, but it's not a humble laugh, no evil sign, and it’s just a childlike smile. It's scary that I can't tell the bottom of that smile. It seems to be living in a completely different mechanism.
“...anything.”
The smile becomes faint. I'm not dealing with humans, so I don't know which words touch make him angry. It seems like I'm walking on a taut wire.
“But I'm the type that loses my appetite when presented.”
Rui said so and turned on the TV.
―――th victim’s…
Change the channel.
―――At dawn today, police found a woman that was falling down in the residential area. According to the situation, the police continue to investigate the case as a murder case.
I can't even ask if he did this.
“If you can do anything for me, draw me a picture.”
Rui said he with less interested voice.
Turn on the room electricity. The fluorescent lamp blinks twice and illuminates the room white after 2 seconds. In the middle is a plain white canvas that I just painted.
“Did you erase that picture? That wasn’t bad.”
“... sit down.”
“Okay.”
Ignoring him laughing, I stare at the face through the canvas. Use a pencil to slowly draft the outline.
...The sound of the siren is ringing outside again.
Look back from the canvas towards Rui. His eyes like glass are looking at me. I watch the lead tip again while controlling the nausea that slowly rises.
But in the end it looks like this. I was staring at a fluorescent lamp vaguely while being laid down by a tired Rui.
“You’re so cute, Anne. Do you want me to stay here so much?”
My arm bones pressed against the floor hurt. Rui slid his finger between my stomach and the clavicle, and pushed the soft area under the throat. I can’t stand and cough. Rui makes his tongue crawl into the hollow. I can see a white canvas over the shoulder of Rui. Every time Rui moves, I feel like my body has become a pulsing organ.
“―――That hurts.”
“Of course it would hurt if are that strain.”
“Stop―――!”
“Oh, don’t move.”
You shouldn't make me go outside, Anne.
You have to try more.
I’ll get bored soon if you are like that.
Rui remains the same, laughing with an innocent face like a child, laughing and looking down at me. All of my sight is slowly blocked. A warm tongue comes in. This, monster… Tears slip off from the corners of my eyes.
The bell rang suddenly.
“be quiet.”
Rui pressed my mouth from above with both hands, and whispered.
Rang again. There is a sign of people in front of the door.
――― Not here?
――― Maybe it's a weekday so she is working.
The voices of several men are faintly heard. Probably the policeman who came here before. A drool drips from the mouth, which is held by Rui.
“......acquaintance?”
After a while, Rui heard me. I tried to lie I don’t know them, but his eyes caught me and I thought it will come out if I tell a lie.
“The police officers who came here the day after you killed someone in the next apartment.”
“I thought I didn’t left any trace.”
Then I don't know what he thought, but he said
“I will not go anywhere.”
"Really?Can you promise me?"
"Of course."
Rui brought his face closer to me. At a distance where noses touch each other, at a distance where eyelashes get tangled, he said.
"until I get bored."
The sixth victim who was killed in a residential town was a 16-year-old girl and she was the youngest and first minor of the victims of this series of incidents.
"...Hey, are you okay?"
A few days after that, the night that Rui won't let me sleep has continued for the promise of "never leave home". Perhaps because I had such a terrible look, one day, even at the first business meeting I met, I was pointed out to be in poor physical condition.
"...I'm okay."
"No, it's not the face of fine person."
The salesman, who came to submit the expense request, roughly threw the expense request form into document case on his desk, wondering what kind of attitude I had, and looked into my face with his hands on the table. I thought he had a beautiful face. Beautiful eyes.
――like him.
Immediately I get nauseous.
――His eyes playing with me also innocently shine.
“Hey!”
As it is, I fall from the chair with holding back a nausea. He hurriedly supported me and said,
"Hey, I'll take her to the medical office!"
Then I floated in the air.
...disgusting.
The body temperature of this person, the body odor of others are uncomfortable.
“...”
“Did you wake up?”
When I woke up, it was a medical office. Looking at the wall clock, it seemed that I slept only for 15 minutes at the most, but it felt strangely sharp like I had slept for the whole day.
“Don't you fall down suddenly, rest if you are sick!”
I think he's the sales person who held me a while ago, and for some reason he is angry with his beautiful face distorted. I apologized.
“I’m sorry.”
He pulled my commuter bag out of his bed and laid it aside my tummy.
“Go home now. I already told the accounting manager.”
“You?”
“Yes. Was it bad? It's not the fine person's complexion!Go home and get some sleep Anne Akatsuki!”
“Why you know my name.”
“Ah? You and I entered the company at the same time!”
…?
“Kaname! My name is Gen Kaname!”
“...oh.”
Seeing him angry and introducing himself, I somehow thought it was dazzling. If I look at such a normal, shiny eyes, my eyes will rot and fall off.
“It’s okay. I can go home by myself.”
“Shut up. I can't walk a woman like you with bad condition alone.”
Kaname is walking with my bag. Than he took taxi and throw my bag in.
“Go in.”
I silently board.
“Get some sleep!”
He shout and closed the door. Somehow I felt it's funny and my face loosens. I feel that someone has spoken to me for the first time in a long time. I felt a warm thing leaking out of it. However, as if to cover it, there is some discomfort around the groove. The hand that trembled and chilled without control could not be helped with that warm thing.
“You came back so early today.”
It’s because, I have to come back this house with such monster.
“A terrible complexion. Someone will find out about us.”
Rui grabbed my face and pulled it. His hands are as cold as I. This person doesn’t have such a hot body as Kaname. I remember that I thought that the body temperature of Kaname who held me was uncomfortable. I’ve already become a dead body like this person, so normal people are too bright and I cannot intolerable.
“You didn’t sleep well last night again.”
From that day on, Kaname started to come and see me every day.
“If you have no business…”
“I have a work! Here, the purchase request form for goods!”
“Put the supplier name and amount here.”
He make something to do and come to my seat.
“Stop being stubborn. We are same age.”
“This is my characteristic. I’m always like this.”
“Than stop being like that to me!”
“Why do I have to… Here, this is it. If you finish making copy, please return it to me.”
Looking at his back as he headed for the copier with a stack of paper, I felt a warm thing again.
“You look better than before, but your complexion won’t get better.”
“It’s originally.”
I stood up to put it in the back cabinet. ...Nowadays, every time I get up, I get sick with anemia, and I feel like my knees are not standing properly.
“Be careful!”
“I knew that it wasn't originally.”
He muttered so and went away.
When I got home, Rui was sitting at the table and watching TV. On TV, the story of the serial murderer, who still has no clue, continues to be heard.
――― So the third victim and the sixth victim had something in common.
――― It's not a common point, but it was discovered during the investigation that they were members of the different group on the same SNS site.
―――group?
―――Yes. They were
“Welcome back. Anne.”
Whether or not Rui knew I was staring at the TV screen, he suddenly switched channels.
“After eating the rest of food yesterday, my stomach doesn’t feel so good.”
“I’m sorry. I should have kept it properly refrigerated.”
“It’s okay.”
“I will make something that’s good for your stomach.”
“You’re so kind!”
He told me with that empty smile.
When I was doing the washing, Rui was entwined from behind. Just when I was washing the kitchen knife. In the back, an end song for the drama is playing. I haven’t noticed it , but on TV, not only news but also fiction tells every day that innocent people die.
“Hey, it’s dangerous.”
“You looks happy recently.”
Looking at my hand for a while, he said, stroking my navel over my clothes. Even though he has a sneaking up tone, I feel as if he has known a deadly secret, as if he were holding my heart. I reflexively shake my shoulders.
“Did you find something fun outside?”
Unbuttoning the blouse one by one, Rui puts his chin on my head and continues.
“Did you find a boyfriend? It's almost always because of man when girls change their appearance.”
And he directly touched my skin through the gap in my shirt.
“That’s not good, Anne. Are you okay if I go outside?”
I shake my head.
“No? Than you have to think about me first.”
“Wait, I’m holding a knife now, it’s dangerous.”
He pulled his hand that was touching around my belly out of my shirt and put it on my right hand holding the knife.
“...Rui?”
“You said you don’t want to die. … Do you still don't want to die?”
He lifted a knife with my arm and aimed the edge of it around my chest.
“Stop it, please. ...I don’t want to die.”
I felt like he is laughing on my head. After a while, Rui slowly return my hands to their original position, and slowly separates himself from my back.
“You’re amazing, Anne. I don't feel bored at all.”
