Lacking Freedom

作者：セシリア

People doesn't realize someone else's pain.

More correctly, people never understand the others' pain.

It's just because they are also in pain, like this.

Every single people has a selfish feeling in them.

Even people are good at hiding them, they always, always has selfishness.

I am lacking freedom.

Well, from the point of view of the people who are really lacking freedom, I have tons of freedom.

But I am lacking freedom compared to those normal people around me.

My friends.

It's so unfair.

I have to stay after school every single day 1, 5, and 6. Sometimes even in the early release day.

It's so hard to hear everyone leaving school, or playing in school, while I have to study and study and study and study and study, not understanding anything, not because I'm not paying attention, because I'm stupid. I cry every night because of this. The class is just here to remind me, each time, that I'm not smart enough to understand any of those.

It's just so hard for me to look at my friend having fun, understanding those, in front of me. Smiling, in front of me.

Everyone having fun, understanding, smiling, except for me.

Except for me.

It's always me.

I'm always the one who is crying because of something people enjoys.

Unfair. Unfair, unfair, unfair, unfair, unfair, unfair, unfair, unfair, unfair, unfair, UNFAIR!!!

The real good person in stories are the people who sees their selfishness straight, admit it, and try to make it better, or take moves after thinking about it.

They must be clever, kind, and they must see a lot of things.

Only clever people are the people who understand what they do not know, what they are bad at.

If the people don't know this, they can't truly be a great person.