Momoe's and Mako's family life was happy itself.
Momoe's and Mako's family life was happy itself.
It isn't possible to heap this neighborhood, too, on the example and a coffee shop was driven into the closing 7 years before from now by the advance of the large-sized family restaurant.
It lost to the cool business and the cool thought to have made uniformity.
Then, it is bankruptcy.
It divorced Momoe because of this bankruptcy tumult and my love affair.
The regret suited Momoe sufficiently, but the advice of Momoe's friend and relations and myself, too, had the guilty conscience and it decided divorcing reluctantly.
Momoe rendered service to my parents sincerely.
It sings in the grumbling at all.
If the parents live, talking about the divorce only and being vehemently opposed are obvious.
Momoe, too, wanted to maintain anyway marriage relation with me in the past with me.
Making up one's mind even if it may surely return with Momoe if I recover an economic power in time
However, in the last day 7 years before in November, the midnight before, before outside, the bise was raging.
When I attempted to go home, it left only the home furnishings of me and Momoe and Mako had disappeared suddenly.
It is vacant and empty.
When cowering at the center of the room where there are not in dumb surprise ( in dumb surprise ) and home furnishings, the sadness and the loneliness which doesn't have experiencing so far welled up
.The neighborhood cried without " your! it had gone where selfishly! " there not being as though I had forgotten myage. too, aloud and thinking like a child.
Since the mother passed away, it cried for the man to cry.
It expected but saying such a thing, it was made to actually feel with the divorce.
Beyond expectation, there was a taste for the simple and quiet of the single life , the loneliness soaked into the thud and the core in the heart.
It consented to me selfishly and saying Momoe, too, was the choice which it is more still easy for this one to part from than parting, having a word, it endured.
When the relocation destination would be a parents' home in Mukaishima, the guess was on but didn't have the nerve which is searched for to the parents' home where there is Momoe's family.
Even if I who am forced into the gradual decline life call on the parents' home, it rather hangs inconvenience on Momoe and Mako.
The shameful feelings had priority over.
There were feelings of the depression in being driven to bankruptcy in several month a second series.
When thinking being born where by this mental-condition at first, it became the end hopelessness and it became desperate.
The world
of the empty one
when knowing
increasingly
Reprehension kick... Manyoshu①
Otomono Tabito
( When knowing that it was empty in the world, it was finally more increasingly sadder. )
It was for a while and there was an invitation and it decided emigrating from the old friend in the school days of the residence to Kyoto to the diversion to Kyoto.
Hajime was troubled to rent an apartment.
At my income ( the pension ), even the reception of the subscription doesn't do even owner of a house himself in addition to the real estate agent.
The more the acreage estate company was large-scale, the haughtier it was.
but finally borrowed through the acquaintance
Here, it was made to actually feel the warp ( the distortion ) of the gap society.
Before bankruptcy, because it lived in the comparatively classy condominium, I am amazed at this gap.
There was a room among shabby 1 of 6 mats in the old apartment as Horikawa.
The substitute rent was bargain.
It was the end 6 years before of February.
The coldness of Kyoto in the winter was exceptional.
There was much more loneliness, too, because it was difficult to leave Tokyo where there are Momoe and Mako and the memory to have draw reluctance moved.
The one of the ball ( the ball ) coating(koromo)
The sinking in the case
In the younger sister at the house
Not speaking, coming and boiling
( The Manyoshu The ancient Eastern Japanese verse )
( The case in case of the beautiful coating sinks, the thing has appeared without hardly saying to the wife at the house and can not endure missing. )
I went to the karaoke tearoom which is in the neighborhood in the north side in Minami-za and in it as Nawate which is near the Shijo big bridge when accustomed to the town in Kyoto.
It was a mom oneself low-rate shop.
It was the shop of the name, " karaoke tearoom Hachikin ".
The proprietress of shop was the womanly, spirited and fine bright person in the country in the south of coming from Tosa① really.
Hachikin is the dialect of Tosa and it says that it says the reckless and strong-minded woman.
A name was called Canna.
A Tosa valve of it was exposed and the one leaned on the visitor in the good impression.
Especially, it was not but the popularity agreed with the visitor of the small face which in funny on body's ( the body ) being stuck, too, as with the belle.
Specifically, it was extremely popular with the man visitor.
The woman customer was the character that there were some in the habitue to fit well but that Canna is far from this Kyoto word (hannari)in Kyoto word which is indeed called .
The person in most recent Kyoto doesn't use a word, this " hannari".
There is a sense to have become a word in the past.
However, because I love this word, have me made to use.
It says that it says lecturing on " hannari " meaning for the people except Kyoto and Kansai to " the calming and graceful and bright style, the taste, auditory and the taste ", too.
She was a singer and the singing ability was outstanding.
The popularity suited a woman in Kyoto to clap on the becoming about which it was supposed that it does and the men who like a song.
It sang a bosom melo until the 20s well in Taishou, the early stages of Shouwa, during fight and after the war.
The thing to have aimed at the dancer at the time of the twentysomething and to have gone to Tokyo but to have lived , Kyoto,after all, she resigned herself,in the dream
The age is the middle of the forties.
It was not a bosom melo generation but while singing a bosom melo by the request of the visitor, it polished a song.
If saying me, as for this man, there was not an interest in the song of the other type at all except the bosom melo in the mother generation.
As for Canna, in " the evening is faint " of Tsuzuko Sugahara's the the fragment " in half moon(kataware tuki) and Utako Matsushima and so on, I remembered parting Momoe and sang " the black pupil " of " the beach in the moon " of the bosom ,Dick Mine well.
Only as for that it was easy to sing, pretending to do a new work in this karaoke industry, a song with trivial merit was sung.
The coming Japanese song of the sugary feeling which has no merit was mainstream.
As in the aim of the music industry, the CD of this hand sold well.
If Canna had the request of the visitor, it sang songs such as this but the real intension was interested in the radio song which started prewar bosom melo.
Then, the song classroom of such a type, too, organized actually and was guiding in the song to the visitor.
The guide which has dryness in that the teaching method, too, is kind and the politeness of it was popular with the student.
The sense to foresee the end quickly can burn Canna, and it returned in the thing, formed a hasty conclusion and the result, in the failure, it met often.
The cleaning up where the inside of store doesn't come, too, are troublesome " " does the girl, too, charter some ,but and the needed condition , but to reduce the fee of the shop and to try to attempt customer development and it is good to expect a lot of visitors
Not to be the status such as the salary of the girl which it is possible to pay
There was a habit which doesn't realize yet in the obsession.
This very person was the funny and extreme thing when seeing from the side, being quite dead serious and a form of humorousness and I were looking.
If saying an obsession, she believed herself who am singing at the stage of the red and white poetry contest fight of NHK of course in future, becoming famous.
but being an obsession if saying an obsession
I, too, imagined her figure and was doing myself who am cheered on NHK's hall in the obsession.
Together if it is possible to have sung at the stages such as " Kutsukake Japanese ballad-type song " and " island Sentarou love poem " of the bosom melo before the war with Canna and the duet if made and if made, it swelled up in the obsession.
It was doing itself that myself, too, am singing Haruo Oka " the spring in the border " and Sumako Matsui's " the song of the wandering " at the stage in the obsession.
The obsession battle, too, is a good place.
However, doing an obsession, too, is the thing which is good on the mental health.
It is the one which makes a split second, life delightful.
Also, there was a habitue to fall into the canna and to go to her shop like every day, too.
Only, even if the canna became more familiar with the such visitor, it did self-assertion more and it rolled up it with the Tosa valve and made it.
Because Canna grew into the poor house, by having beat, that the habitue was severe in the real intension by leaving a business at the visitor who sympathize with TMK, didn't come,not at all.
It is natural to do it if saying that it it is natural.
As for me, eight 7・ knew such a visitor.
For there to have been a profit of the shop sufficiently if only the visitors such as this came every day
I became able to drive to the such Canna only what time.
As for Canna, there was a difference with age but it adored me like a father or an elder brother whom the year no left.
However, to become a famous singer generally in this industry, in addition to the singing ability, it was taken many funds.
I didn't leave to the power with the fund aspect even if I became the counselor of the canna in the spiritual aspect.
And then, saying the one where there is not appropriate person in the visitor, it seemed that it was searching, but easily, a man of the thought is discovered and there is not he.
Therefore, the consultation suited me.
I introduced the company which makes marriage in the middle-aged and elderly direction a specialty to Shijo Kawahara-cho in Kyoto.
It was the information to have heard before from the man of the acquaintance.
I didn't want Canna'marriage in the real intention, but there were not means to support her by anyhow and introduced to me in the complicated feelings.
One man rose from the inside of the list in number Hyakunin to the candidacy.
It was the professor who works in the private university in Kyoto.
It was a gentleman with round age from the canna.
A name was called Kakurou Miyoshi.
Miyoshi was born in the good family in Kyoto and in a hurry had assets, too.
Canna was the woman of of making a father by the separation by death, making infant or the type that the man whom the age left can drive .
It regarded Miyoshi as being a good and honest man and it determined a canna.
The partner, too, liked Canna and the marriage succeeded.
Only, marriage was official and Miyoshi was a married man.
Miyoshi was a considerable light person, and of the mind suffering at the house by a wife while living in distress and being hospitalized to the mental hospital he
Easily, the sign of the recovery can not be seen and Miyoshi itself, too, spent depressing every day.
Therefore, Miyoshi was searching the woman who is suitable to be released from the status in distress.
If associating with the canna as the leman
Saying aiding even with the fund, it was businesslike and the canna decided associating.
When hearing the story from the canna, it blessed with " congratulations it was bited in my heart as soon as returning to the popular shabby home which is not ( and ) the loneliness and the sadness and doing the cowardly of my body saw in the core ( the pith ) in the heart.
I was the feelings as it had the person who should love robbed.
The vividness and moreover canna's being behaving itself free from all cares after association with Miyoshi because it made massage before and anxiety was wiped out by the future of the shop and itself
Even if the canna became finer, my feelings sank more.
the no
Then, I frequented to Canna'cafe, it depended on the shop of Canna.
Of course, because it didn't have generally, while borrowing money from the friend and the acquaintance at first as above-mentioned, the going of me such as the such money was done to the shop of the canna to.
It did the purpose that the deposit, too, touches bottom in the meantime and to work out interim living costs to the friend and moreover a debt.
It became a street performance in Shijo-gawara of the beginning because it was for a while and the filling of the income was cut off by me about the people around, too, using amiableness up.
I was of the thought and the nerve to be ashamed of at first and it hesitated about the execution, but to want to go to the shop of the canna, it helped with the confidence to its song, too, it forgot the age of my body and so on and it defied live by me.
To come to live scene, it invited because it called to the habitue pal at the shop of the canna, too, and " it was permitted to come 7 or 8 habitues "be a decoy ".
However, the result was miserable.
Almost, it became all along ignored live.
It was natural to do it if saying that it it is natural but the man who has no elderly merit gave these just subdued songs such as the nowadays hardly sung children's song and the bosom melo eyes, too, hardly.
Because it imagined it little from the first, it tried it when disguised as the clown and would draw a feeling but as expected, the result ended cruelly.
Ugliness of old age of it was exposed and it exposed shame only.
In the meantime, anyone of the habitue pal didn't come and as for the street performance, the nature disappeared.
the old woman of the rich man that meeting at the shop of the canna to go to the shop of Canna is older finally about me and
It decided associating with Ms.kiku
It was already led by the husband and it lived freely.
The point of tact with the old woman was only a bosom melo.
As for it, too, in the song of the level which can be never crawled on when good which doesn't have a heart, the rich and peculiar arrogant ( arrogant ) character appeared to the how to sing.
I endured her haughty ( haughty ) character and made have priority over handsomeness to myself.
Whenever together two
Before entering the shop of the canna, at the vicinity at Gion shopping district, it finished supper.
The chrysanthemum was pushing a eaing and drinking price into the pocket of my trousers in the eve to eat and drink.
Then, it was paying the dining charge of 2 man-minutes from its inside.
It was the consideration which doesn't damage pride as the man.
It thought that it didn't appreciate a chrysanthemum as expected.
After enjoying at the shop of the canna, it grasped entering at the coffee shop at two, in case of the return, it grasped her hand fast, and lightly, it embraced it and it parted.
Ms.kiku paid all of these dining charges.
Also, it got some spending money, too.
Among two, at this degree, it was satisfied each other.
Specifically, because the family fitted ms.kiku, there was not being deeply involved.
As me, it adored ms.kiku like an elder elder sister.
Because it lost a elder sister with age as much as the chrysanthemum the other day, she was existence like a elder sister.
Only, sometimes, ms.kiku sometimes proposes the invitation to exceed a limit about being bold, too, too, but I ran away successfully to the occupation under the pretex on business.
Even if it went home to the apartment among 1 of 6 mats which is worn, for a while, it became a big character at the center of the room and it rested a body ( the body ).
When gazing at one of the ceilings, the face of the dumb pig could have seen the grain of the ceiling panel.
It is the one which smiled unconsciously bitterly at the same time as convinced that it must be the face ms.kiku of the farewell cheat in an instant, a short while ago while thinking that it was the coming and meeting face somewhere.
It was humming the song which was sung alone in the literary exercises when being for a while and I was an elementary school 1 grader.
,saying " the four seasons of returning father mother when. became but returned father of mine what time ", as for , too, I time-travelled 60 years before and was singing.
Probably, it thinks whether or not it was not the song of the war orphan.
It isn't certain.
Then, Momoe and Mako crossed a mind.
When making depression seem, there was a woman who can have suspicious color and scent in front of the low dining table and she was sitting square attentively.
She is Momoe obviously.
When I said " it is for a while! it was fine why are you now? " " let's remarry ", decidedly, it turned to the front with " there is not a feeling of remarrying with you at all " and moreover, it had had refuse being open a rage.
There were that I ask " do you have the person who is already good " and also dropped her eyes and ask and also it had kept silent.
In case of being for a while, in me, it is ( the bubble ) and it became asad look.
I woke from the dream in the place to be struggling when there was not possibility such.
Outside, the sparrow was singing in the chirm with the electric light pole at the alley as white 々.
The morning dawned.
It was for a while and finally, it got to deep sleep.
to be continued
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The Manyoshu: The songbook in the oldest in Japan
20 volumes
The 350 year ( 409-759 ) work
It is possible to think that it does the one to have passed through Otomono Yakamochi's hand.
The greatest treasure in high Japan of the accomplishment universal truth of this world which showed that the moving which is based actually based on the rich human nature is done
