June 4, 2025 (Reiwa 7) The Exposed Identity
The Exposed Identity
Preface
This essay is a record of how Panda, once nearly labeled a “prophet” for being gifted, slowly began putting fragments of their mind into words.
This time, it’s about meeting the internet for the first time—and how it led to their “true identity” being exposed.
In a place without faces or names, it felt safe to speak honestly… until it revealed the “limits of imagination” in those around them.
It’s also the beginning of a journey to understand why Panda can “just know” things.
Along the way, the story touches on novelist Kenzaburō Ōe, and explores the gap between “misunderstanding” and “understanding” in Panda’s own way.
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Main Text
“A Creative Diary of a Gifted Panda, Written with ChatGPT”
June 4, 2025
Panda’s “true identity” was completely exposed after encountering the internet.
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A world where you could talk to people without revealing your face or name.
It gave me a sense of security… and so, I let my guard down.
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One day, I posted my thoughts on a message board.
Within a week—
I was invited to a forum where university researchers gathered.
Everyone was intelligent, and I relaxed.
I ended up pouring out thoughts I had kept locked inside my head.
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The reactions came quickly:
“Prophet?”
“Psychic?”
“Time traveler?”
“Alien?”
From such a mediocre high school,
from such a low-ranked junior college,
from someone who writes such slow, typo-filled sentences—
how could they possibly be intelligent?
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And then, Kenzaburō Ōe himself said:
“I want to write a novel with Panda as the model.”
At first, I was happy.
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But when I read it, I was shocked.
Panda had been portrayed as an intellectually disabled boy who could time-travel to the future in his sleep.
… I stopped reading halfway.
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After that, I began analyzing in my mind why I was the only one who could “just know” things.
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I remembered—
In elementary school, I was good at math.
But in junior high, I rebelled against my mother and boycotted studying for two years.
My class ranking dropped from 160th to 390th.
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Then, in high school, I recalled something—
In probability and statistics alone, I always scored 100.
The high school I attended was Yūki First High School.
It was “First” in name only; the academic level was low,
and the content taught was at junior high level.
Even after boycotting study in junior high, I could keep up easily.
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And I realized—
“When I think, I unconsciously use probability, statistics, and comparative analysis.”
That “way of thinking” was what made me different from everyone else.
So I hurried to write it online—because I was afraid of being turned into a prophet.
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Afterword
People want to put labels on what they can’t understand.
“Prophet,” “time traveler,” “psychic”—all ways to frame someone as coming from outside their own world.
But in truth, Panda was just an ordinary kid who liked to think.
Realizing I unconsciously used statistics and comparative analysis didn’t make me happy to be called a genius.
I was simply afraid of being made into a prophet. That’s all.
This diary is a small record to untangle those “misunderstood thoughts,” one by one.
And if, somewhere, you think, “Maybe I’m like that too,” I hope you feel a little relief.
The world may seem small, but it’s fuller of thoughtful people than you might think.
