リプライズ ‐ パート2
I suppose the first thing I should do is try to fully regain my bearings. Try and find the direction I want to go.
The Nuns seem somewhat concerned about my sickness. Well, I wouldn't call it being sick exactly, but I'm sure that's what it appears to them.
I feel weak, my head is always cloudy with thoughts, so I imagine I look completely out of it.
Aelaria calls it the Flu or a fever, which the others take her word for considering she's an elf. Elves are supposed to be good with medicine and stuff, at least that's what they say.
I truthfully have no energy to try and explain anything to her or the others. I mean, what would I even say?
Hey, Aelaria-san. So yeah, I actually died.. not once, but twice! I was reincarnated before, but this time I just came back to the start. So I've actually been here before!
Yeah right... as if I could say that. Even if she did believe me, I'd probably be seen as a threat or something. Or it'd be brushed off as the ramblings of a kid.
One of the things I think I did right in my past life was not bringing up my reincarnation.
Days blur together when all you do is lie in bed, replaying your failures. I think it's been a week since I woke up in this body again.
The most notable difference these days is, considering the Sisters assume I am ill with something, I'm allowed to rest. Which is nice, I don't want to see more of this world than I have to.
I'm sick of this place.
I'm sure I look pathetic like this. But there's that part of me that cannot endure this, I suppose that part being the younger me.
But I can gather it's likely been a week since I died... again.
I've had enough time to run over everything after all, and I certainly didn't have the will to do that earlier on.
It feels like I've slept a few days, so yeah, I assume it's been a week.
A week of what?
Oh, that's bad. I really did nothing. Nothing at all. I just thought...
I haven't even come to a real conclusion about anything!
To think I used to be the 『Hero』 and 『The one who will clear the Dungeon!』...
Gah... I can't stomach the idea of going back to that dreaded place. Dark... disorientating... annoying monsters... and uncomfortable places to sleep. How did I manage to fight in that Dungeon for so long?
It must have been that determination I had - to find adventure in life.
But I've had plenty of adventure now... why do I have to go through all of this again? Stupid Goddess, giving me second chances...
Goddess... Hm...
What was the stuff she told me before? How many years has it actually been since I spoke to her?
No...
I remember something even now that I should have listened to.
What was it exactly?「It is consequential that you fulfill the contract of your metempsychosis.」 right?
And the condition she gave me was 「You must clear the 【16th World Dungeon】 of this world I will send you to.」, that was it, wasn't it?
Is that why I was sent back to the start? I didn't complete my pact with the Gods?
Is that how this works? Am I stuck in a cycle until I fulfill my part of the bargain?
But I don't want any more second chances! It was a dumb thing from the start, why was I reincarnated? I was meant to die! I was meant to die, on two occasions!
She gave me a gift, or maybe it was a punishment disguised as one. I thought I wanted adventure. I thought I wanted another chance. But now I realize... I never asked for this...
「Curse you, Goddess.」
